What does nursing mean to me

When my daughter was in the kindergarten, I was told her stating of introducing herself from their presentation activity, which was "I am Zena who wants to be a nurse who is helping sick people with beautiful mind." I just laughed at her saying at that time. I remember to consider a nurse just as a typical job for young girls. 

After all, it turned out to be just thinking in her childhood. In my case, I had never even think about it. But it is me who is currently in nursing program! Isn't it interesting? At the word of 'nurse', what reminded me were just Nightingale and injection. Besides, I have totally different background from the health care field in my home country. To be honest, why I chose PSW as a first job after coming to Canada was nothing but a practical reason. Afterwards, while working as a PSW, my perception related to 'caring people' changed. What is the thing helping people? Sometimes I read a news that people who are at risk not in the hospital was helped and saved their lives by health care workers who were there by chance. I used to be inspired at the scene and asking myself again 'what is the thing helping people?'. I think it starts from the simple fact that we all belongs to the human race. It is simple primarily action as a human being! 

I wanted to get advanced knowledge and skills to help people in a more professional position. That is why I am here despite of not having a living  role model or even Nightingale story from childhood.    

After completing one year of the program, basically I still have the same ideal of a nurse, but I have felt that I need to develop my communication skills, leadership and the ability of problem solving to be a competent nurse. And also, I realized that it is important to mange work-life balance and stress since I got to know the job of nurse was needed more capacity than I expected. That is because I should be able to keep 'beautiful mind' like my daughter said.  

아 또하나의 학기가 끝났다. 시험 끝나고 돌아오니 느므~~~행복했는데 아뿔싸, 또하나를 잊고있었네. 보너스 점수를 주기위해 하라던 포스팅을 깜박 잊고있었다. 나 그 점수 빠지면 페일이고만. 

역시나 내가 맨 꼴찌. 아직 듀가 1주일이나 남았구만 다들 어찌나 부지런한지... 

자책하지 말자. 왜 내가 나를 맨날 못났다구 하느냐고. 했으면 됐지. 그런데 점수를 위해 하는 일이었지만 쓰다보니 내 생각이 정리가 되네. 의미있는 일이었어. 내가 뭣때문에 하려고 했는지 내가 그 일을 하는 의미가 뭔지. 그것만은 잘하고못하고가 없는 그냥 내 생각이지 않은가. 문장이야 순 오류투성이일테지만 담긴 내용은 그거 나에게는 진지한 이야기잖은가. respect myself!